I don't often post on blogs, and I don't often write about myself. I suppose I ought to start by telling you a little bit about who I am. My name is Sean Kerman, I am from Palo Alto California and am a student at Brigham young university. I am a Mormon and have been from birth in some senses. I often write about my past history as a member of the church, but perhaps it would be wise to start by talking about what is, or has been happening more recently. Last November, just over 2 months ago, I found out that my father has cancer. He was diagnosed with a later stage of meyloma, a form of bone marrow cancer.
At first I tried to ignore the fact that it was happining. I had seen my dad a few months earlier, and apart from a few minor back problems he seemed fine. When I went out to see him for Thanksgiving, I found his conditions was not something that I could ignore. I visited him in a hospital bed. When I first saw him, he didn't really smile, he just looked up at me with a somber face. A face that was just to worn and tired to be anything but still. As I sat there with him, I realized that my being there was important to him. When I was there, when by brothers, or sister, or mom were there, he started to feel better--he improved. I had long thought that my influence on people, and theres on me was insigificant. But in those moments as I sat with my father on the top floor of a quiet hospital, I realized that others impact on me and mine on theirs is much stronger that i had thought. I is people that make my life worth living, not that extirior things that I had thought before.
